Moving forward

• Well, we both have jobs, we're both "set".  hmmm... it's funny isn't it?  That no matter the circumstance I struggle to trust.  When I am in need and when I am not.  I still try with all my might to balance on my own control.  Swaying back and forth  as the winds move and change.  My foundation is the balls of my feet.  God pushed and moved me through a few years of being supported financially by many of you.  I struggled so much with this.  Never knowing if and how much would come in each month, having to ask for help.  This process stretched and moved me.  I wanted to be on my own, in charge of my finances, a steady paycheck.  Now that I'm here, I find that still in this time I need to trust the Lord.  Everytime an expense came up I didn't expect or there was even the most minor transition I would panic, react.  God is steadying me.  I believe he is steadying many of us.  Making us solid for anything that may come ahead.  It's shaking everything that I believe so that anything that is not truth can be wiped away.